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Self Immolation


images.jpg mermaidMy feelings burn
From the inside out ~
Searing themselves
Into the page ~

My heart is beating
Like a wild thing
In my breast ~
And I don’t know if ~
I want it all to stop
Or to go on ~

If this torment is love ~
Then why is it so
Fervently desired ~

Why would one choose
To yearn and ache and
Skate the very edge
Of madness ~ for the
Sake of the Beloved ~

And I am caught as
Surely ~ as any sailor
By a Siren’s song ~

I can’t ~ I won’t ~
Give up this wild
Intoxication ~
This sweet
Exhilaration ~

I am undone ~
What shall
Become of me ~
And do I even care ~

I burn with love ~
Just as the poets said ~
And what is more
I lit the torch myself ~

My eyes are
Open wide ~
I know the score ~
And I will risk it all
For love ~

Author: Melody J Haislip

I'm either a transplanted East Coaster or a born again West Coaster. My heart kept pulling me toward Oregon, and when I followed it I found my dream, which I am living daily. My dream of becoming a writer has come true as well. I am in the company of people who speak my language, and the sense of community is healing hurts I didn't know were there. I am very grateful for my enormous good fortune.

7 thoughts on “Self Immolation

  1. God I love that word “self-immolation”- I’ve never heard of it so thank you! 🙂 I think you express here something so universal, it makes me think the answers hold the meanting of life.


  2. Your words have captured the feelings perfectly. Nicely done!!


  3. I had to look up the word immolation. (See … a continuing education is available to all who still wish to learn.) I see that you admit to lighting this fire of deeply-burning love. Waving a painted fan will keep the flames alive. When one loves like this it can be all-consuming. Isn’t it great to feel the burn? You know you are still alive!


    • Theresa, “feel the burn” as a love slogan. I like it. And you know, sometimes you just can’t resist putting your hand into the flame to see how hot it really is. 🙂


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