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This Is Not Over

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My Armor No Protection

My Armor No Protection

In the background Riccardo
Cocciante sings “Per Lei” ~
And it moves me to the depths
Of my soul as it always does ~
Cool and deep and running
Like a river of emotion ~

I am lulled and utterly defenseless ~
As pain ~ sharp as any dagger ~
Slips between my ribs ~ piercing
To the very heart of me ~ my
Armor no protection against
Its passionate assault ~ and
Even though you are not here ~
I am helpless before you again ~
As I was last time we met ~

Why do I torture myself this way ~
Building the pain till I almost
Burst ~ knowing that I cannot cry ~
Why do I court Death so avidly ~

Do I seek to destroy the heart
Whose loyalty you used against me ~
It should be you that I destroy ~
But I your victim cannot bring
Myself to be my own avenger ~
Because I love you still ~
Against my better judgment
And with no care for safety ~

I am a fool and you know how
To use me ~ Damn your eyes! ~

(Listen to Per Lei @ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jGY6pRu6_po)

Author: Melody J Haislip

Born in a small, Illinois log cabin . . . No, that won’t work. The pampered only child of incredibly wealthy parents . . . No, that won’t fly either. Raised by French nuns after her aristocratic parents were beheaded . . . No, that’s been done! Got it: An East Coast transplant to the Pacific Northwest, this notoriously late bloomer began her new life with a new career as a writer and blogger. She has taken to both the new location and the career move like a duck to water. Writing is a new adventure, and our intrepid risk-taker is diving in, feeling right at home and making new friends. Reached for comment, she replied, “Okay, I wrote my bio, now may I Please go out and play?” We expect great, or perhaps merely more coherent, things from this writer. (Okay, that’s a wrap. What a wacko!)

13 thoughts on “This Is Not Over”

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  2. hocuspocus13
    April 27, 2014 at 4:47 pm

    Reblogged this on hocuspocus13.

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  3. Jill Applebaum
    April 27, 2014 at 5:53 pm

    Do you want to say who you’re referring to? Jill You are a good writer!

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  4. Melody J Haislip
    April 27, 2014 at 6:24 pm

    Jill, I was actually channeling this one, and I’ll tell you this. Someone is seriously angry still. Thank you. I’m glad you enjoyed it.

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  5. Suze
    April 28, 2014 at 9:11 am

    Melody, I gotta tell you:

    Joy is a flight risk. It posts bond and flees, knowing even the most dedicated bounty hunter cannot drag it back.

    Pain of soul and body, on the other hand, is a most willing, faithful partner, in life and in death.

    Decry it, abuse it, say you do not want it (and you certainly do not love it), yet it looks at you and stays.

    It knows you better than you know yourself, and knows you are weak against that old, familiar feeling.

    Joy eludes, but Pain is always waiting; a balm against an existential crisis.

    “I hurt, therefore I am.”

    Later,

    Suze

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    • Melody J Haislip
      April 28, 2014 at 9:16 am

      Suze, you silver-tongued angel you. I’ve never had anyone answer a poem with a letter before. I love it! Thank you for responding with such beauty.

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  6. abouhadil
    April 30, 2014 at 7:38 am

    very beautiful poetry full of emotions and feelings succeeded very well done

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  7. Theresa H Hall
    May 4, 2014 at 11:15 am

    Being in love against all logic and finding oneself a victim of the user is a sad fate. Even harder is acknowledging this, because it takes great heart to extract oneself from the talons of love. I’ve been there and done that. Hugs!

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    • Melody J Haislip
      May 9, 2014 at 9:24 am

      Theresa, I think it’s a matter of loving oneself enough not to be a victim. No easy matter, that. Hugs to you!

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