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The Homecoming

 

Crying Woman

On a recent trip back home
To visit family and friends
I asked my niece for a drive
Through my old stomping grounds

I guess I hadn’t thought it through
Perhaps I thought that it would be
The same as I remembered ~ and so
The changes caught me unprepared

We drove through areas where
I had lived and worked and played
They say you can’t go home again and
Of course we all know that’s not true

But that doesn’t mean you’ll know
Where you are when you get there
I could have been anywhere ~
St. Louis or Omaha or Houston

I’m not a crier ~ I never was
Yet there I was ~ fighting to
Keep from bursting into sobs
Dizzy and disoriented and confused

The city is so much taller now
Unfamiliar and familiar ~ stand
Side by side or have simply
Vanished as if they never were

That was Tuesday and it’s Friday now
And I’m still working through my feelings
I feel as if my history is disappearing
There are so few who would remember me

And I’m left feeling whiny and ungrateful
Although I’m truly thankful for my new life
Perhaps it’s that it seems to be a foretaste
Of how it will be when I am really gone

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Joy in the Morning

Porch Smothered in Roses

One minute I am
Balancing my checkbook ~
The next I am standing
On a childhood porch ~
Smothered in pink
Sweetheart roses ~
Smelling like the
Dawn of all creation ~

I can almost feel ~
The delicate touch of the
Early morning air ~
Cool against my skin ~

It feels as if there’s
Birdsong in my veins ~
My knees and elbows tingle ~
In that one moment
It comes flooding back ~
Those magic moments
From my youth ~
When I was most alive ~

Even then ~
I must have
Realized those times
Were special ~ meant
To be stored away ~
So that they could
Be taken out ~
Unwrapped ~
Remembered ~
Savored ~

I am so grateful
For the kindness and
The foresight ~
Of a Universe which
Gives such lovely gifts
On a Monday morning ~


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Air Water Fire Earth

Earth Air Fire Water

I look up into the
Deep blue vault
Of the heavens
And think of the thin skin
Of the atmosphere
The only thing that
Keeps us from the
Dark cold depths of
Space and instant
Annihilation

I stand at the edge
Of the ancient cliff
Looking down at the
Restless ocean
As it crashes and
Breaks against the
Shore
Another attempt
In its timeless battle
To take back the land

And later still I sit
Gazing into the fire
Basking in its warmth
Thinking of long ago
Days when I was
A child and Summer
Was forever
And love was ever
A shimmering promise
On the edge of my
Horizon

I remember the fields
With the sun on them
The ripening grain
The forever rows of corn
Tasseled and shining
Green as the leaves
On the trees
That surrounded
And sheltered our
Home

Thus I recite my litany
Air Water Fire Earth
And I feel the pull of you
As I feel the effects of
The gravity I cannot see

To me you are the most
Elemental of all
Without whom nothing
Matters
You are the love of
All my lives

I see the remembrance
Within your eyes as well
And peace and love
Enfold us
We have found each other
At last


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In A Child’s Eyes

A Babys Eyes

Did you ever look deeply
Into the eyes of a newborn
And see the pure clear flame
Of the still-connected soul

Fresh from the hands
Of its maker it shines
And if you are lucky
And if you are wise
Perhaps the child will
Bless you and connect
You for a moment to
Your Source within

Swelling your heart and
Tearing your eyes as
You strive to linger
As you feed the hunger
Of a spirit left too long
Alone and unattended

But even though
The moment ends
The peace and the
Healing remain
Glimpses of glory
From beyond the veil
Gift of the Spirit


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Prelude to Passion

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The towering clouds
And freshening breeze
Tell of the coming storm

Just so my love
Your grim face
And angry eyes
Betray your mood

You’re looking for a fight
And I’m quite happy to oblige
But while we spar
I’ll bite my lip as
I gaze up at you through
Lowered lashes

Fold my arms
Beneath my breasts
And touch the heart
That hammers almost visibly
Against my skin

Your speech will slow
And silence will engulf us
As the air between us
Heats with promise

I said that
I would fight love
I never said
That I’d fight fair

 


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Royal Dilemma

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The silence hums so
Loudly in my ears
I cannot hear the sound
Of my own heart
The heart that I rely on
To guide me through

The very air seems
Preternaturally still
Though I feel it moving
Through my body
I see the rising and the
Falling of my chest

What kind of alchemy
Do you possess
Are you a demon or a
Sorcerer that everyone
Falls prey so swiftly
To your charms

Am I to be the one exception
To the rule
The only citadel to which
You have laid siege
That has not fallen
To your passionate assault

But this is not a game
The stakes I’m playing for
Are higher than they’ve ever been
My heart and the fate of
The kingdom and my people
Hang in the balance

So when I make my choice
I must be guided
By more than love
I must be mindful
Of my duty to my
People and my throne

What shall I do . . .