Not Enough

My heart is cracking
Breaking ~ shattered
By the knowledge
That I can’t unknow

The enemy has captured
One of my beloved
A child of my heart
But even so
The pain is as intense
As if I’d borne her

There is no treatment
They have no cure
There is no ransom
We can pay ~ this tragedy
Has struck at random

My prayers are all I have
(And my anger)
But so often as
I give control to
My higher power
So often do I try
To wrest it back again

I have so many memories
And she has fewer every day
We will have a
Period of happiness
And then the sly face
Of her abductor
Will emerge with
Taunts and hurtful
Words and even
Sometimes with hostility

I still catch glimpses
Of the person
I will always love
But she is lost to me
As if she lived in
Another country or
A different time

And there are not enough
Tears in the world
To wash away the pain

Unfair

You see me and you smile
And just for one brief moment
It feels the same ~ until
I see the faint touch of
Confusion begin to form
Behind your lovely eyes

It’s clear you know me though
You can’t remember how and
I trap the tears inside my heart
But as I stand here hugging
You hello I realize I’m also
Kissing you goodbye

And I am angry on your behalf
And I am frightened too
And I am lost without you
We’ve been close friends for
All these years ~ so many
Secrets ~ so much love and trust

Your body has betrayed you
Blocking the signals from
Reaching your brain and making
You search for the words
You want to say ~ you who were
Always so quick with your tongue

And I am helpless before the
Enemy attacking you from within
But this is only the beginning
I have just begun to fight and
I have powerful allies waiting
To join me in this battle